I have been surprisingly silent since August. I am in college now, full time school, learning so much, but not doing anything I feel is worth anything. Photography is becoming just my dream state it seems, I don't have the time for it and when I do, all my plans don't work because no one here will be in the pictures, so I'm left just sitting in the leaves with my camera and me, we just talk, that have so much to say, but no way to speak. I think I will try and leave here next year, a different school, one that actually will let me work in photography, because this one doesn't believe it is one of the fundamental art forms, which is something I strongly disagree on.

If its anything, I have been living the college girl life, I spend Wednesdays and Fridays out on the town, and I spend the rest of my time on school work, I strive for unreachable goals still, so I just spend all my time hating what I do, its an oxymoron of a lifestyle.

You were right, Johnny and The Moon is such a magnificent sound! Oleanna is particularly good night now.

I have so many ideas, I hope someone will one day make them try using their skills, mine seem to be dissipating, I need someone to actually help me, not just give me another drink. lonely somedays, cuddle anyone?